FAITH OF OUR FATHERS
THE FAITH OF OUR FATHERS
RENEWAL TO THE BODY OF CHRIST - HIS CHURCH
I TRAVELED MY LIFE IN POSTHASTE . . THINKING THAT I AM WHAT I AM - A NEVER ENDING DREAMER, DOER AND AMBITIOUS TO A FAULT. . .ITS A STORY TOLD AND RETOLD BY ME EVEN TO ME - AND SOMETIMES I SHARE THEM TO FRIENDS BUT MOST OFTEN TIMES I WONDER AT IT ALL!
THE WONDER OF COURSE LIES IN THE FACT THAT GODS HAND IS OBVIOUS ALL THROUGHOUT MY LIFE - MY EVERY TURN AND CHURN - MY WALK AND TALK - MY SOB AND BOB - AND MY SAIL AND TRAIL!!! GOD HELD ME - HE CARRIED ME - HE SADDLED ME BACK TO MY HORSE - HE CLENCHED TEETH WITH ME AS I GOT THROUGH THE MURK AND MUD OF MY LIFE - HE SHOULDERED ME WHEN I GOT SLEEPY ALONE AND ALONG THE PATHWAYS - HE JUST KIND OF GREET ME WITH THOSE TOOTHY SMILES WHEN I GET MY ACCOLADES - AND NEVER SAID A WORD EXCEPT THE EVIDENT - “I TOLD YOU SO” LOOK THAT MADE HIM A REAL LIVING BUDDY. . . .
MANY TIMES IN MY YOUNGER DAYS - THE LEADING HAND OF THE LORD WAS BRUSHED ASIDE FOR WHAT SEEMS TO BE MY EGO TRIP IN LIFE. . I WAS SUCCESSFUL IN ALMOST ALL THE THINGS I DID . . MONEY POURED IN FROM MY BUSINESSES . . LIFE WAS GOOD BECAUSE OF THE LORD. . . BUT WHY WOULD SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND ME FORGET ABOUT THAT!! WHEN TIMES ARE OKAY WE FORGET HIM - AND WHEN TIMES ARE BAD OR WHEN WE ARE SICK THEN WE REMEMBER HIM! . . WOULD I LIKE TO CRUCIFY THE LORD EVERYTIME??? . . .I WILL NOT . . .
MY MIRACLES WITH THE LORD ARE JUST AS AMAZING! . . . THE LIFE I HAVE WAS GIVEN BY MY PARENTS OF COURSE, YET IT WAS GOD WHO GAVE IT TO ME - LITERALLY. . . . . I DIED AND I LIVED AGAIN - LITERALLY TOO. . . WHEN I GOT SO SICK AND I GOT WELL. . . . I GOT AN ANNAL HOLE - ITS WHAT I CALL IT BECAUSE IT WAS A SECOND ANUS WHERE MY REFUSE ARE COMING OUT AND ITS ALWAYS SWOLLEN TO A SIZE LIKE A TENNIS BALL. I BARELY CAN WALK BECAUSE OF THE PAIN I FELT. . . THE DOCTOR SAID I MUST TAKE A MAJOR OPERATION TO REMOVE DIRT AND CLOSE THE HOLE BUT WHEN I ASKED IF I WILL HEAL - MY DOCTOR SAID IT IS DEPENDENT ON ME. . ON WHAT - I SAID!! “ON MY POOOHING!!! . . . ” . . . . . THEY CANT GUARANTEE ME MY HEALING BECAUSE OF THE EVER PRESENT FECES WITHIN THE HOLE WHENEVER I POOH. . . THAT DEVASTATED ME. AND IT CAME TO A POINT THAT EVEN THEN, I WOULD CONTROL NOT TO POOH FOR DAYS ON END - JUST SO THAT THE PESTERING FECES WILL NOT ENTER THE HOLE AND SWELL IT AGAIN AND AGAIN! . . AND I WOULD ENJOY A FEW DAYS OF COMFORT FAR FROM THE SWELLING BALL NEAR MY ANUS! . . . . IT WAS SEVERAL YEARS THAT I SUFFERED THIS . . ONE DAY I REMEMBER WHAT THE LORD GAVE ME MY LIFE BACK AND SO I REMEMBER HIS WORDS AND I QUOTE . .”COME TO ME YOU WHO ARE HEAVILY LADEN AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST . . ” . . . AND I CRAWLED BACK TO GOD! AND I RE-COMMITTED TO HIM MY LIFE FOR THE NTH TIME - JUST LIKE I COMMITED NOW. . I BELIEVED HE HEARD ME AND ACCEPTED MY RE-COMMITMENT AND SO THE USUAL ENDING COMES - I GOT HEALED!!!
MY LESSONS ARE APLENTY. . . 1. THE HEALING WOULD HAVE COME EARLIER IF I WENT TO HIM THE FIRST TIME. THIS MY FRIENDS - MUST BE A CHRISTIANS FIRST LINE OF DEFENSE - IS TO GOD; 2. MY FIRST COMMITMENT TO GOD WAS MADE WHEN I NEARLY LOST MY LIFE - IN FACT I DIED AND WAS RESURECTED LITERALLY. AND I VIOLATED IT. . .THE DETAILS OF MY COMMITMENT TO HIM WERE SPECIFIC AND AFTER I VIOLATED THIS COMMITMENT THEN, I SAW MY FAILINGS AND FADINGS WITH THE LORD IN SPECIFIC CIRCUMSTANCES ALL THROUGH OUT MY LIFE. WE MUST COMMIT AND SUSTAIN THIS COMMITMENT WITH THE LORD. WE CAN VIOLATE IT AND VIOLATE IT REPEATEDLY AS I DID BECAUSE WE HAVE THE FREE WILL GIFT FROM GOD, AND YET - IT WAS VERY VERY VERY COSTLY FOR ME AND FOR YOU TOO.!!! I WILL NOT GO INTO THE DETAILS OF THE COST TO ME, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING ELSE, SUFFICE IT TO SAY THAT I LOST - AND I LOST NOT ONLY MATERIAL THINGS; NOT ONLY WEALTH; BUT MY HEALTH TOO. - AND WORST OF ALL I LOST MYSELF. . . . MAY I REMIND US ALL THAT CHRISTIAN OVER THE WORLD ARE THE SECOND JEWS IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD. . . YET WE STRIVE TO BE FIRST IN THE KINGDOM HE HAS PREPARED FOR US.
- Posted by BENE ILACAD BALLUG on September 3, 2009 at 8:30pm
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RENEWAL TO THE BODY OF CHRIST - HIS CHURCH
I TRAVELED MY LIFE IN POSTHASTE . . THINKING THAT I AM WHAT I AM - A NEVER ENDING DREAMER, DOER AND AMBITIOUS TO A FAULT. . .ITS A STORY TOLD AND RETOLD BY ME EVEN TO ME - AND SOMETIMES I SHARE THEM TO FRIENDS BUT MOST OFTEN TIMES I WONDER AT IT ALL!
THE WONDER OF COURSE LIES IN THE FACT THAT GODS HAND IS OBVIOUS ALL THROUGHOUT MY LIFE - MY EVERY TURN AND CHURN - MY WALK AND TALK - MY SOB AND BOB - AND MY SAIL AND TRAIL!!! GOD HELD ME - HE CARRIED ME - HE SADDLED ME BACK TO MY HORSE - HE CLENCHED TEETH WITH ME AS I GOT THROUGH THE MURK AND MUD OF MY LIFE - HE SHOULDERED ME WHEN I GOT SLEEPY ALONE AND ALONG THE PATHWAYS - HE JUST KIND OF GREET ME WITH THOSE TOOTHY SMILES WHEN I GET MY ACCOLADES - AND NEVER SAID A WORD EXCEPT THE EVIDENT - “I TOLD YOU SO” LOOK THAT MADE HIM A REAL LIVING BUDDY. . . .
MANY TIMES IN MY YOUNGER DAYS - THE LEADING HAND OF THE LORD WAS BRUSHED ASIDE FOR WHAT SEEMS TO BE MY EGO TRIP IN LIFE. . I WAS SUCCESSFUL IN ALMOST ALL THE THINGS I DID . . MONEY POURED IN FROM MY BUSINESSES . . LIFE WAS GOOD BECAUSE OF THE LORD. . . BUT WHY WOULD SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND ME FORGET ABOUT THAT!! WHEN TIMES ARE OKAY WE FORGET HIM - AND WHEN TIMES ARE BAD OR WHEN WE ARE SICK THEN WE REMEMBER HIM! . . WOULD I LIKE TO CRUCIFY THE LORD EVERYTIME??? . . .I WILL NOT . . .
MY MIRACLES WITH THE LORD ARE JUST AS AMAZING! . . . THE LIFE I HAVE WAS GIVEN BY MY PARENTS OF COURSE, YET IT WAS GOD WHO GAVE IT TO ME - LITERALLY. . . . . I DIED AND I LIVED AGAIN - LITERALLY TOO. . . WHEN I GOT SO SICK AND I GOT WELL. . . . I GOT AN ANNAL HOLE - ITS WHAT I CALL IT BECAUSE IT WAS A SECOND ANUS WHERE MY REFUSE ARE COMING OUT AND ITS ALWAYS SWOLLEN TO A SIZE LIKE A TENNIS BALL. I BARELY CAN WALK BECAUSE OF THE PAIN I FELT. . . THE DOCTOR SAID I MUST TAKE A MAJOR OPERATION TO REMOVE DIRT AND CLOSE THE HOLE BUT WHEN I ASKED IF I WILL HEAL - MY DOCTOR SAID IT IS DEPENDENT ON ME. . ON WHAT - I SAID!! “ON MY POOOHING!!! . . . ” . . . . . THEY CANT GUARANTEE ME MY HEALING BECAUSE OF THE EVER PRESENT FECES WITHIN THE HOLE WHENEVER I POOH. . . THAT DEVASTATED ME. AND IT CAME TO A POINT THAT EVEN THEN, I WOULD CONTROL NOT TO POOH FOR DAYS ON END - JUST SO THAT THE PESTERING FECES WILL NOT ENTER THE HOLE AND SWELL IT AGAIN AND AGAIN! . . AND I WOULD ENJOY A FEW DAYS OF COMFORT FAR FROM THE SWELLING BALL NEAR MY ANUS! . . . . IT WAS SEVERAL YEARS THAT I SUFFERED THIS . . ONE DAY I REMEMBER WHAT THE LORD GAVE ME MY LIFE BACK AND SO I REMEMBER HIS WORDS AND I QUOTE . .”COME TO ME YOU WHO ARE HEAVILY LADEN AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST . . ” . . . AND I CRAWLED BACK TO GOD! AND I RE-COMMITTED TO HIM MY LIFE FOR THE NTH TIME - JUST LIKE I COMMITED NOW. . I BELIEVED HE HEARD ME AND ACCEPTED MY RE-COMMITMENT AND SO THE USUAL ENDING COMES - I GOT HEALED!!!
MY LESSONS ARE APLENTY. . . 1. THE HEALING WOULD HAVE COME EARLIER IF I WENT TO HIM THE FIRST TIME. THIS MY FRIENDS - MUST BE A CHRISTIANS FIRST LINE OF DEFENSE - IS TO GOD; 2. MY FIRST COMMITMENT TO GOD WAS MADE WHEN I NEARLY LOST MY LIFE - IN FACT I DIED AND WAS RESURECTED LITERALLY. AND I VIOLATED IT. . .THE DETAILS OF MY COMMITMENT TO HIM WERE SPECIFIC AND AFTER I VIOLATED THIS COMMITMENT THEN, I SAW MY FAILINGS AND FADINGS WITH THE LORD IN SPECIFIC CIRCUMSTANCES ALL THROUGH OUT MY LIFE. WE MUST COMMIT AND SUSTAIN THIS COMMITMENT WITH THE LORD. WE CAN VIOLATE IT AND VIOLATE IT REPEATEDLY AS I DID BECAUSE WE HAVE THE FREE WILL GIFT FROM GOD, AND YET - IT WAS VERY VERY VERY COSTLY FOR ME AND FOR YOU TOO.!!! I WILL NOT GO INTO THE DETAILS OF THE COST TO ME, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING ELSE, SUFFICE IT TO SAY THAT I LOST - AND I LOST NOT ONLY MATERIAL THINGS; NOT ONLY WEALTH; BUT MY HEALTH TOO. - AND WORST OF ALL I LOST MYSELF. . . . MAY I REMIND US ALL THAT CHRISTIAN OVER THE WORLD ARE THE SECOND JEWS IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD. . . YET WE STRIVE TO BE FIRST IN THE KINGDOM HE HAS PREPARED FOR US.
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